I was halfway through talking about appraisals..
One of the leadership roles we are assuming right now after 1.5 yrs is appraising staff.
It's rather exciting.. (and larry popped into my mind.. lol. cos the definition of excitement being used here is puzzling..)

Some came to us.. nervous and uptight
Some came to us.. give up/withdrawn.. it's has been like this all these years.. i just wanna sign and get it over and done with
Some came.. with lots of complaints.. that's when our ears suffer a bit.. however at the same time hopefully we can learn sth from their perspectives and improve things in our minute ways.
Some came as friends cum good colleagues.. and we talked for a long while.

It has been a good experience.. meeting these battle mates whom we have communicated countless times over com sets but failed to meet or chat.

It's a little easier meeting the crane men..as we monitor and deal with them almost all the time.. and hence neglected the back end RTG/RMG guys.. unless they really impress us with the rate they work..

有了你以后，每一天都是一种挑战
很多事都要分裂的去想
数着不争吵的日子；
看着你的心会痛、会颤抖，呼吸也会痛。。
只因为讨厌你和爱你的理由相同
每一天只能不断地学着一点一点地去放开
希望自己能给你的是更广的天空和呼吸的自由
只能毫无条件地信任和相信而希望不被辜负

默默地陪着你。

希望你不再是一个人；
不再是有了等于没有；
而我的意义能让你的生命有所增值

Why do people hurl hurting comments at each other?
Is it absolutely necessary?

No next time...
Swirls around in my head.

Never was a chance given for me to express my thoughts..
The more attempts at explaining, the more mistakes made;
Worse.
Has any patience been given for calm minds to communicate, confess and re-justify all these while?

You have tried hard
I truly meant it.
I'm not difficult.
You don't know..Thoughts that had (simply) passed through your mind but not redeemed in action are already enough... to touch me.
You think i am difficult.
But what i am asking for are just some basic expectations that barely meet many's requirement.
Uncertainties. Is a killer.

Thanks for constantly reminding my past
That's a punch in the face.
Past or semi-past?
One without his past will not make him who he is today.
Hence past definitely makes up what he is.
How he thinks constitute from the experience gained; from the likings/dislikings of someone else who exists in that semi-past.
I only did a very auto assessment of possible causal factors which are resulting in certain resultant reactions.
These supposed causal factors do not necessarily result in the results - but still worth contemplating.
In experiments, bad causal factors which led to bad resultant influence can be effectively eliminated.
Probably the anger in this case comes from the redundant contemplation.
The past cannot be deleted.
So why bother? Why the need to even have the thought?
I don't know.
Lack of confidence??
Insecure??
I really don't know.

Disrespectful...
Totally inapt for us. I feel.

I'm loved.
I know.
Many things cannot be left unsaid/unexpressed though.


There's no need to
You should know
I hate assumptions.
No 2 bodies can be on the same frequencies all the time.
Remember to give some allowance for discrepancies that might happen.
It will work wonders.

P/s I silently recall on the no. of times you said you are tired.
I felt my heart numbed.. i realized i had totally lost count on the number of times (do you used to be this tired as well.....?)
Each time you say, each time the sentence echoed louder to me.

Pp/s 只能无奈的趴在小睡熊
抱着它是我此时此刻唯一的安慰

Ppp/s 你话： 过去是等着你和我携手一起去冲淡的
你会抓牢吗?