My dearest.
Always stood by me.
No matter how many freaking times i failed or hurt him to the core.
I tried imagining being treated the way i had treated him.. i can only close my eyes.
No one and i mean NO ONE will ever or has been the harbour he had prepared himself to be for me.
I'm sorry for being juvenile.
As i said, last shift was a horror and having been overworked and having someone to just glaze at you in silence, giving you a tight grasp, stroking your hair at the end of the terrifying day.. together with your fav drink & a baby for you to rest in..
All these, without any grudges and in full willingness.. it just says it all.
I felt so peaceful and sheltered.

I noe i am significant to you.
The distance i sometimes displayed are just ways of telling you i am unsure, and i dont want to hurt you anymore if i were to fail you again.
I rather close the gap between the happiness and the shock that might come in future.
There are just so many concerns on my mind.
I just wish that all the problems will go away and there are so many places in the world i wanna explore!
I want to have the walls full of the photos of where we will step on if these days do come.
Most importantly, i don't want to see you getting hurt or not being able to rest/eat well as a result of me as you will always be my dearie.

The dinner with xiao di at simon plaza was pretty fruitful.
He is a real sweet gentleman as usual - highly recommended. :p
We had some good debates on various perspectives about life.
It was real fun to be able to push him to the corner during the countering and he no longer managed to guard against his stand. Hehe.
And of cos there are some dark secrets which i managed to yield from the session as well.
We shall have it again alright hopefully this time round everything would be back to normal.

I hope the best for you gal.
It's a crisis to face, be strong.