Unappreciated.
The fear for kinship to boil down to monetary terms.
The dread for this bond to dwindle based on such arguments.
Bringing along the chain of vexation and many whys reflected upon.
It all came true.
So meaningless.

For all that i have done in the best of my means.
For all the considerations and contributions i have made.
For all the prompt effort.
I - am reduced to nothing but a fool.

It is time for me to realize whatever i have done/will do will be condemned as nonexistent - no matter what.
I reflected thoroughly.
I wanted to laugh.
Well, maybe the urge to cry.
But i will not allow myself to have 1 drop of tear wasted on such ingrate.
I puzzled over how all my efforts can be so oblivious - whether intended or not.

Hurt.
Totally.

P/s 1 day i shall walk away - hold ur breath n dun regret

五年了。
谢谢你。
踏出来.
从前不曾多加珍惜的愉快聚会居然会在我生命里消失了五年。
*苦笑*

The dinner with Rogan and Vanessa at Grand Copthorne's was more than what i have hoped for.
It was fun and though only the 2nd time i have seen her, the gap was greatly closed compared to the awkwardness experienced during the first.
It was fun watching Rogan's sheepish look when he got smacked by all her sarcasm.
The dinner left me with a good reminiscing whirlpool effect.

There are just certain friends in life whom u have already lost touch yet remained alive and yearning in your memories.
一直牵挂着.
JR is definitely one of them.
I miss the time we spent searching for obscene stuffs underneath his mattress so that we can show it to JH and watch his ears get pulled.
The long hrs we spent chatting and gossiping on phone.
The vulgarities and despair shrieks i was so used to hearing him hurl whenever he gets dragged to the toilet by the boys.
And.. when i listen to 恋人未满 and watch my sassy girl and its canon in d.
I will always remember how he came to class bringing these cds and kept promoting how fantastic they were (of coz over how chio his selena is) followed by his generosity at lending out to us.
It's 5 yrs since we last spoke.
I wonder 他现在过得怎样?

My hair still reeks of the persistent chemical smell.
Major change over.
Taking more time and getting used to.
But it's fun to try out sth wild in life and catch yourself and everyone else off guard.

P/s a wave of sadness wash over as u pull away..
pp/s 值不值得：有了他，你是否还是一个人？

哭也被骂；
笑也被骂；
毫无表情也被讲。
真是进退两难。

今天有一只坏乌龟又实践了以上的几幕。
一哭劈头就说：还哭！
而不是第一时间怜惜‘心疼地帮你拭去眼泪和懊恼惹得你哭了。有人想哭的吗？

一笑就恼羞地喊：还笑！
看着你笑，自己被嘲笑又有什么关系？

一-_-就被问罪：怎么对着你老是这样？！看了就sian
你也有咯。五十步笑百步。

这样的人我要记载他的恶劣才过瘾。

每个人都有梦想但我却活了这些年而连去探索寻找的勇气也没有。
唯一能想到的就是没在毕业后马上报名当老师。 (no offence)

我也有好多僮景却觉得他们好难实现.
我喜欢拼图.我想和心爱的人一同拼好多幅有趣生动的拼图然后挂满着主人房的墙.
洋溢着幸福的那种.
我想和他朝夕相对,吃饭看电影睡觉都好
每一分钟都在感受他的呼吸和沉稳的心跳
这一切都是可遇不可求的
在错的时候遇到对的人及在对的时候遇到错的人
到底哪一个比较可悲?

相夫教子
是平常不过的事
里头包含着伟大的及不容取代的爱.
如果能遇到一个让你这样的人而他也享受着,那该是多么沉醉的
可是太难了
有多少人可以这么做的原因在于这是条毕经的人生道路而并非他的心要这么做`只想这么做.
遇到的话放弃什么也可以
因为值得
反正念的书也差不多忘得七七八八了
没关系
^^