After a shagging standby day night off day day night cycle,
I thought finally;
I thought all was well.

I thought.

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Indulging in the newly bought Dave Wang's album.
His selected popular hits.
It's been ages since i spend money on an album.
This time i couldnt resist looking for these old songs to reminisce.

Did mani and pedi at nail@the lacquer shop.
Rather satisfied with their service~!

Went swimming cum suntanning followed by kite flying.
After the 3rd attempt, the kite is finally flying high.
Although it looked almost totally unwilling. Hah.
Most kites are quite obedient looking one leh..

Actually i dunno what im exactly raving about.
Just take it to be for record purposes.

Xiao di's 23rd Birthday aka 23rd Oct

Courtesy of Mel's dad.. we have our portrait!

His expression looked like having been dragged to the toilet..


The blissful boy~

We forced the shy boy to make a wish.. and im not exactly sure what kind of pose is that..

His 23rd birthday cake - i chose!

Tada! The happy and touched (he must ok!) xiao di!

Erjie lighting the candles for our beloved xiao di

ErJie and I!


Forgot to pose 1 of us kissing!

The 2 gluttons! Actually not.. they started preparing/cooking the stuffs while erjie and i prepare the utensils. They are actually quite gentleman.. i guess 1 of them doesnt really have a choice.. *erhem* but xiao di is a real good bachelor~ Erjie and i decided to make fun of him =p we interrogated him and asked if erjie and i were available, would we be in his circle of consideration and the comical boy actually answered yes. hahaha.. we were rather pls cos we think he has high standard and concluded that a boy whom hasnt had gf thru out shld be damn rich now.. muahahah. the crazy girl kept trying hard to play match make.. but despite how gd he is, he will always be my xiao di.. a special fren whom i rmb us to be sitting by compass's floor and chatted non-stop abt anything under the sun and someone i knew whom will always be there. We just wan him to bring us his gf one day!
I must also thank mel whom solved my plaguing PC prob promptly despite facing some obstacles. i didnt even have to remind..
10 yrs from then i surely didnt know i have these group of friends whom i can walk with.

The steamboat fiesta after our mahjong exercise! I have always loved steamboats with loved ones. I love the preparations! And a comfort with these decade friends is that we still hold steamboat gatherings yearly - of coz someone bangseh us and HE PROMISED TO MAKE UP ONE BY END OF THE YR

Bought this score simply coz of 1 song - 男人女人. The last piano book i bought is easily 8 yrs ago.

She's sleepyhead. Adorable isnt it? =p

你说有没有可能我和他有着一份契约，用一年的时间到外面探索，看有没有一个更适合彼此的人？
我不想到我老的那一天，后悔自己从来没有过别的选择。
要是时间到了，而我们并没有找到，我知道我能放心地和他一起走下去。

曾几何时，自己不是没有这么想过。
而事实也证明，更本没这个必要。
如果，你是开心的；
如果，你是满足的；
This evil thought wouldnt creep on your mind.

你可以说是对彼此的公平。
你也希望他能找到对的人啊！
但是，如果你不能没有他的话，你能够冒这个险吗?
这个契约根本无法担保未来。
没有任何契约能够。
I can only say 'don't try'.. unless you can afford to do without this person/this is the last straw and only chance you can apply to him/her。
Things will never be the same again.

有一些人把爱情当武器。
精打细算如何对自己有利。
人与人之间的相处需要这样复杂吗？
和你最亲密的人有着这种城府，究竟有谁做得到？

爸爸对我说：只要他不让你哭。
我想好难。
记忆当中，有过不曾让我落泪的人。
我知道自己是被爱的。
但我并不是很开心。
总觉得单一的爱情不是自己想要的。
无法使我付出的爱情，我也不要。
错过一次也就够了。
我不想重遇同样的案例，再重复同样地结局。
有些人一直追寻着同类的伴侣，却一直重蹈复辙。
我不要。
如果他无法惹你伤心而哭泣，那他就无法给予你对比的快乐。
如果他无法令你魂不守舍，或许他在你心目中的分量不够；或许你对他已经麻木。

其实，我很简单的。
我只想和自己喜欢的人相爱。
没什么要求的。
只要对我的坚定、尊重与专一。
可是这些却是很难的。
是始料未及的难；没有人能理解的难。

如今我很怕哭。
更讨厌不请自来的眼泪。
总显得很懦弱。
因为十分清楚 -
当一个女人的眼泪，无法让她的男人心软，这段爱情就得宣判死刑。

所以，如果在意他的话，女人要在对的时候装无知和大方。
否则知道了也是徒然。
不知道这样算不算是没有自尊。
如果不是，大概也不算是爱情。
或许要等到伤痕累累、狼狈不堪的那一天，才能宣告放弃。

Shall commemorate this day.
The all-year round silent dad came into my room for those erm.. 'funny, awkward etc' conversations.
First he claimed that as he swept my room for the past 3 wks, he noticed the phenomenon of an increasing hair loss.
It puzzled me awhile and he took out a bottle of supplement i bought from GNC to hopefully aid in raising metabolism rate..
A big hoo-ha they thought i was into slimming and hence the hair loss.
I think i barely ate 5 pills max out of the 60 tablets.
Walau must be more careful with combing my hair now. ='(

Then he u-turned and asked if i happened to be threatened by anyone with my X-rated photos.
Fantastic imaginations. I must say.
If i were drinking water then my pc would most likely crash.
The reason for his query - i looked miserable and they caught me in those sad moments la..
*Suspecting he's jealous* he said he didnt even see me in this state for him before.
What rubbish lo.

As he served me his advices, i listened with care.
I know it is often almost easy for anyone to attempt with good-intentional advices.
Despite their pain-stakingly efforts to knock some good sense into you, it just wont work out entirely the way they would want their guidelines to be adapted.
Often these soundings would be rejected unknowingly simply because - you do not know what i am going through. You are not me.
It then seems like good logical advocacy fell on deaf ear.
However it isnt so as the listener would analyze and ultimately conclude these suggestions as unfit for conformation as these 'common sense answers' are supposedly templates not apt for one's situation.. coz his/her particular situation is unique to each individual. There will be needs for modifications before considering these as suitable versions for themselves.
And the modifications then come from (again) one's very own resolutions which others had already reckoned as an astray path.
Eventually, perhaps only at the end of the episode, then can one cease to struggle and be enlightened with some realization from the closure followed by the aftermath.
But question is, how easy can that be?
(Concern appreciated~)

It is definitely uncontrollably, unfathomably painful and complex.

P/s Obstinate-ness eradicates every bit of you.

Been eating quite some good food since last sunday granny's dinner at Jing.
Followed by a gathering after a super duper tiring shift at sush* t*i with kelvin, goo, siang and tai.
It was a gathering delayed for half a yr ever since the bonuses were out in april hence it was planned on this day.
It was pretty alright.. talking about wk and some insights to their rosters/ground gossips etc.
We ordered several plates of sashimi, some ala carte dishes and a super huge spicy hotpot.
Food was alright - not as fantastic but i wasnt sure what exactly was missing though.
Maybe it's the company.
However the bond with them would be those unmentioned ones like counterparts you could count on in a fight.

Last night was bro's bdae celebration at PG.
The dishes dad ordered were rather generous - peking duck, double boiled shark bone's soup, salty egg prawns, sea perch in plum sauce and lobster with longevity noodles.
I finally could conclude the bosses are practical pple.
For the times i was there ordering not so exotic food they wont even bother coming over to greet you and change your dishes personally but this time round, 2 of time actually come by twice.
I thought that was an unwanted attitude.

After that went kite flying or rather watching! Hee.. but gonna try somemore! Cos the kite with an innocent face refused to fly up high!! We ended up with lots of mosquito bites!

Next wk will be the long awaited steamboat gathering at mel's place hope there wont be anymore plan change!

1 hr to seeing the dentist *trembles*

P/s wo xi huan da feng yin wei ta ke yi rang bu ting hua de yan lei si diao

Totally heart FM 88.3 to bits.
They play songs that i could indulge into - 99.9% of the times i tuned in~!
Not to mention the times it accompanied me on baby~

Just took some pics with a SLR cam..
It's been so long!
And clicking on it is sooo fun!
=p

The last night shift with timo as my soc 5 and johnny as my soc 4 made me laughed my head off.
It's just the right combi cos i couldnt imagine timo with uncle low.. it wouldnt be that hilarious.
I havent had a fren whom is as fat as timo and still constantly craves eating ice cream in town.
He looks like a all pumped up hot air balloon.
But don't get me wrong.. i dun discriminate him.
He is damn cute and funny.

Timo: *humming some silly weird lullaby song*
Johnny: how old are you liao?
Timo: *In a subtle low voice* Not yet 40 loh.

*background knowledge - timo is 20++ johnny's 40*

That was a powerful one cos that entirely shuts the teaser up and i nearly rolled onto the floor upon hearing that KO statement and seeing the look on johnny's face.

Seriously couldnt stand him. I thought i had lost some grams from the laughing exercises i had that night.

The other day i saw a pretty girl at a station and i thought upon first look she is pretty.
She was carrying a transparent bag - which would naturally prompt anyone to glance.
Unfortunately, there was a green marlboro lying amongst her other girly belongings.
It was an ultimate turn off immediately.
What a pity.
She was such a dear thing.
Which prompts me to think what's the catch in those sticks?
Would i love it too if i try?
If i dare to try?

Granny's 82nd birthday at Jing @ one fullerton.
It was fine dining style.
Not too bad really - both the food and atmosphere.
I love their porcelain candle holder which could be used as aromatherapy too i think.
A rather interesting meet-up with the usual BGR topics.

P/s huo zhe bu neng jian dan yi dian ma?