Paint My Love

I'm finding my way back to sanity again, though I don't really know what I'm going to do when I get there. Take a breath and hold on tight, spin around one more time and gracefully fall back to the arms of grace.. I am hanging on every word you say and even if you don't want to speak tonight, That's alright, alright with me. Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing, is where I want to be. .

Monday, October 19, 2009

Shall commemorate this day.
The all-year round silent dad came into my room for those erm.. 'funny, awkward etc' conversations.
First he claimed that as he swept my room for the past 3 wks, he noticed the phenomenon of an increasing hair loss.
It puzzled me awhile and he took out a bottle of supplement i bought from GNC to hopefully aid in raising metabolism rate..
A big hoo-ha they thought i was into slimming and hence the hair loss.
I think i barely ate 5 pills max out of the 60 tablets.
Walau must be more careful with combing my hair now. ='(

Then he u-turned and asked if i happened to be threatened by anyone with my X-rated photos.
Fantastic imaginations. I must say.
If i were drinking water then my pc would most likely crash.
The reason for his query - i looked miserable and they caught me in those sad moments la..
*Suspecting he's jealous* he said he didnt even see me in this state for him before.
What rubbish lo.

As he served me his advices, i listened with care.
I know it is often almost easy for anyone to attempt with good-intentional advices.
Despite their pain-stakingly efforts to knock some good sense into you, it just wont work out entirely the way they would want their guidelines to be adapted.
Often these soundings would be rejected unknowingly simply because - you do not know what i am going through. You are not me.
It then seems like good logical advocacy fell on deaf ear.
However it isnt so as the listener would analyze and ultimately conclude these suggestions as unfit for conformation as these 'common sense answers' are supposedly templates not apt for one's situation.. coz his/her particular situation is unique to each individual. There will be needs for modifications before considering these as suitable versions for themselves.
And the modifications then come from (again) one's very own resolutions which others had already reckoned as an astray path.
Eventually, perhaps only at the end of the episode, then can one cease to struggle and be enlightened with some realization from the closure followed by the aftermath.
But question is, how easy can that be?
(Concern appreciated~)

It is definitely uncontrollably, unfathomably painful and complex.

P/s Obstinate-ness eradicates every bit of you.

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